1 Kings 19:11-13 New Living Translation (NLT)
11 “Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lordwas not in the earthquake. 12 And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave.
And a voice said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” (Sourced from http://www.biblegateway.com)
Many people say that Elijah was depressed. That might be true. But more to the point, I believe he had anxiety. Extreme anxiety, just like me.
And reading this post in my Bible app (YouVersion) a couple of days back, the idea for this post was born.
Most of the time, we see the windstorm, the earthquake and the fire as examples of great and mighty things that the Lord will not show up in. But remember that God appeared to Moses as a burning bush (Exodus 3:1-17) and He appeared to the Israelites to lead them through the wilderness as a cloud (Exodus 13:21). I’m not trying to pigeonhole God. I believe that He will appear to you however and in whatever form he needs to take to help you believe in him or strengthen your faith.
But a new revelation came to me reading that verse. I believe that God was talking to me, giving me a new revelation that the windstorm, the earthquake and the fire are not forms, they could take on the personality of problems. The windstorm could be the toothache plaguing me right now. The earthquake could be the fact that after a long time toughing out headaches and migraines, I find myself on the slippery slide toward opioid addiction and the fire could be the fact that I’m not sure how I’m going to pay for much of the work that will be done on my teeth. But then, like a balm to my anxiety ridden soul comes the calm that is God’s voice.
My desire is that one day we will all be willing to step over the line from hopelessness to hope, from hurt to healing, from struggle to surrender—that we will look around the room, beneath the cross, seeing each other and hearing Jesus finish that statement: “If you really knew me, you’d know that you are not alone.”
YouVersion plan; Known by Tauren Wells.
I once wrote a post that spoke about my anxiety in great detail here. And I remember in that post, that you could see evidence, receipts of one time I tested God and he showed himself super strong and extremely faithful. I believe that He will do it again. As many times as it takes to calm my fears. He will do it again. Reminding myself of that wonderful fact is a good reason why I refuse to let my anxiety get the better of me. I refuse to live a life caged in by my own fear. It’s beautiful out in the sunshine. We have to blindly trust in God until we hear his still small voice calling out to us.
Everything. Will. Be. Alright. Obianuju. Everything. Will. Be. OK.
Speaking of which, have you heard what the Lord has done… go to a local church and experience testimony hour. It’s so beautiful. I have so many testimonies of this year. Try God and see His beauty and power. Try Him and see.
Anxiety is a terrible thing to have. And I do not take it lightly. I confess good things over my life constantly, I seek out a friend to talk to about it and to encourage me and I research other methods to keep it contained. If you have the YouVersion Bible app, under Bible Plans, look for Brittney A. Moses’ plan. Here, I took a screenshot of it for you.
She’s working on becoming a Christian psychologist and she knows exactly what she is talking about as you will hear if you choose to listen to her podcast. (Invest in Podcast Go by the way. The file size is quite small, about 45MB, it has a greater selection of podcasts than some other apps and it is completely free)
I thought this was beautiful- https://www.kacheetee.com/blog/2018/11/3/mumfession-being-a-mum-with-sickle-cell.